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On Thursday’s episode of the Amy Robach and T.J. Holmes’ I Do, Half 2 podcast, The Women Subsequent Door alum recalled how her expertise within the Playboy Mansion influenced her perspective on intimacy, revealing that she nonetheless struggles with it immediately.

Wilkinson, 39, lived on the Playboy Mansion from 2004 to 2009, the place she was certainly one of Hugh Hefner’s girlfriends alongside Holly Madison and Bridget Marquardt, which was proven on The Women Subsequent Door.

When Holmes requested how her years within the Playboy mansion “form[ed] what you thought a relationship was, must be, and the kind of individual even you had been keen on?” Wilkinson stated, “Look, I wrestle nonetheless to at the present time with my relationships and my views on intercourse.”

“I needed to undergo quite a lot of remedy, they usually checked out me they usually’re like — that is the primary time I am admitting this — however they’re like, ‘You might need a little bit little bit of a intercourse downside. You may have a little bit little bit of an issue in terms of considering of intercourse,’” she continued.

After Robach pressed on what she meant by a “intercourse downside,” Wilkinson stated, “You understand, it is simply unhealthy ideas. Probably not settling for a wedding and stuff like that — which isn’t, I would not say unhealthy — I am saying that everybody has their decisions, and a few folks wanna be single, some folks wanna be married … and I am extra of a enjoyable concept sort of individual.”

The true property agent was solely 18 when she moved into the Playboy Mansion, and left at 23 after she met Hank Baskett. The 2 subsequently tied the knot and welcomed son Hank, 15, and daughter, Alijah, 10, earlier than the couple cut up and divorced in 2018.

Wanting again, Wilkinson known as her marriage “the happiest days of my complete life,” and recalled the devastation that ensued when she and Baskett cut up.

“These days had been the happiest days of my life. And so when these days got here to an finish, I crumbled so exhausting, and it nearly killed me,” she admitted. “It nearly killed me.”

“I left the Playboy Mansion at age 23, acquired pregnant, acquired married on the age of 23, then began my life as a spouse and a mom, and it was the golden years of my life,” she added.

The mother of two went on to look again at her choice to go away her life on the Playboy Mansion behind.

“It was the precise timing. I discovered myself so bored on the Playboy Mansion. I used to be identical to, ‘I am prepared to go away this place. I am prepared to start out a household,” Wilkinson recalled. “I am prepared for the … way of life: My youngsters go to an amazing faculty. I am a soccer mother. I am a softball mother. I am a basketball mother. I used to be prepared for that. I manifested it, and it got here to me, and I met the right man, the person of my goals.”

“Despite the fact that we’re divorced, he is the daddy of my youngsters, and he is essentially the most superb father to my youngsters, and I do know I selected proper with him,” she added of Baskett.

Holmes reacted to Wilkinsin’s reward of her ex-husband, questioning why they are not nonetheless collectively if her reminiscences of their marriage are so optimistic. In response, Wilkinson stated she and Baskett made “too many” errors, noting that they had been so “younger,” earlier than including that their errors resulted of their marriage not being “repairable at a sure level.”

Nevertheless, she did admit that she’ll “at all times be in love” together with her ex-husband.

“It takes two folks to be in a relationship … and when one individual adjustments their minds on love and marriage, that is how straightforward it’s for it to disintegrate. So, I’ll at all times, at all times need my household again collectively,” Wilkinson stated. “I’ll at all times need that. So, until the day I die. I do not know if I’ve one other probability at marriage with that man or not. I’ll at all times
need my youngsters to have these two mother and father collectively. However, sadly, that is a fantasy, .”

“It sounds such as you’re nonetheless in love with Hank,” Robach stated, to which Wilkinson replied, “I’ll at all times be in love with Hank.”

“Errors are errors,” she continued. “All of us make errors. I’ve made my errors … however love won’t ever go away. And if it is actual love, you are gonna put your delight apart and wish the perfect for the opposite individual. And I need the perfect for the opposite individual so badly. … There isn’t any want for bitterness, and there isn’t any want for toxicity.”

“By way of these final six years, I’ve completed a lot remedy,” she added. “I’ve gone to the hospital for seven days to simply reprogram my considering, and I did that, and it actually labored. So I am now residing within the state of peace of thoughts. You understand, I am on good meds. I am simply in a extremely good place.”

Wilkinson went on to present an replace on her present love life.

“I’ve nothing. I’d dabble into some intercourse from time to time — however so far and be in a relationship? That is the longest farfetched factor I might presumably really feel in the meanwhile,” Wilkinson defined. “I am in a bachelorette-type of vibe proper now.”

Nevertheless, she shared that she does have some prospects. “I do have two very younger, enticing, ex-NFL gamers which can be, like, all up on me proper now, and it makes me really feel younger,” Wilkinson stated.